Friday, May 14, 2010

One giant push pin

Push Pin.  That is how I have felt the past couple of days.  I had an appointment with Dr. D today and it was fine - although there wasn't much progress.  My estradile level went up a little but the number I was at today is what most people are at on their first appt. (today was my 2nd) I know I can't compare but when you have been giving yourself injections for over 15 days it starts to wear on ya.  I have to continue on my higher dosage and I'll go back on Monday for another u/s and blood work.(this also means I have to order more medicine)  I am tired of being poked and prodded and having bruises over my push pin tummy.  I feel that I have been so strong and positive but right now I am tired.  Oh. and someone at work today made a comment about adopting and helping someone else.  It really hurt my feelings. (I have been very open about what we are doing - if someone asks, I tell..not just run my  mouth about what we are doing)  Although I think adoption is a wonderful thing, it's not what I want.  I know we can have a baby on our own.  I want a creation of me and J.  Sorry for ranting but today I just feel like it.  Maybe I'm sleepy. who knows.

Tomorrow I'll be heading over to the Reaves to take care of two special little boys.  Justin is playing golf so it will just be me til about 3.  I just know we'll have a blast.  One of our friends is coaching a soccer game at a local high school so I think we'll take them to watch.  Wish us luck!


  1. Sometimes people don't realize when their hurting someone else. I'm sorry you had a bad day, hope it got better!

  2. I'm really sorry Kel! That person probably thought they were helping. People can be so clueless. You stay strong sweetie. You are a testiment of faith and a blessing to everyone around you. Proud of you!

  3. People can be so thoughtless sometimes. I'm sorry!

    about 7 years ago I had a miscarriage and my boss walked by my desk, saw me crying, and said, "Stuff happens." I know he didn't mean it like that, but still!! People should really keep their opinions to themselves!!

    Good luck, girl!