Tuesday, March 25, 2014

No words

I was hoping to be posting about this:

But today, when I went in for my first ultrasound, they found that I had an ectopic pregnancy.  I was in shock.  Complete shock.
I found out two weeks ago that we were pregnant.  If you know my past, you know that I struggled with infertility for a few years, then after 3 failed IUI and 1 IVF, Max and Claire were born.  So you can imagine how surprised and excited I was to be finding out we had gotten pregnant ON OUR OWN!  I immediately called my OB and had blood work.... then had it two more times to check my HCG levels.  I had my last call this morning saying they had risen nicely....
I could tell almost immediately that something was wrong during the u/s. The tech wasn't saying much or answering my questions. Surprisingly, I have not been in a lot of pain.  I would just be around six weeks.
After finding out, I had to go to the hospital to get blood work then was given a Methotrexate injection. This stops the pregnancy from growing. {insert tears}.  I'll go back for more blood work Saturday and next Tuesday, and then weekly until no pregnancy hormone is detected.
I've had a few friends experience a miscarriage, but I don't think you can truly understand the sadness til you go through it yourself.
I know God has a plan, a much bigger plan, but that doesn't make me feel better right now.  I just keep thinking about how excited I was two Thursdays ago.  We just told our parents this past Friday.  Their reactions were priceless. And now.... ugh... this just sucks.

Sorry for such a depressing post.. just needed to get it off my chest.


  1. I'm so sorry, Kelly. I can only imagine how heartbreaking it must be to go from such an exciting surprise to the heartbreak of losing your pregnancy. I know I'm only an internet friend and I live a country away but please know you and your family are in my thoughts. Again, I'm so sorry for your loss.

  2. Oh Kelly. I do not know your pain and therefore cannot offer much advice. Rather, I'll just be praying for you during this difficult time. Hugs to you my friend.

  3. Oh no no no. I am so sorry to hear this, my heart just aches for you. :( im here to support you any way i can during this awful time. Thinking of you.

  4. I am so sorry, Kelly. You and your family are in my prayers. Big hugs!!!

  5. Oh Kelly...I have no words and am so, so sad for you. Please know I am keeping you in my thoughts. Much love...

  6. I'm so sorry to hear this Kelly. You are right, you can't understand until you've been through it. I've been there. I'm so very sorry you're having to go through this.